pladsen finder dig

or so Mikkel said (plads i verden)

I’ve offended one of my friends D.S. I really am sorry

we’re not close but still I feel kinda bad. and I didn’t mean to, I swear

everyone’s snapping at me these days, even Bombon. E is too fking busy. loverboy is just impossible. I am having a hard time picturing our future together but hey, maybe this is a good thing, I might be living in the present for a change! (too busy with the past or the future so far)

that fking expert in that fking cheap book could have been right? in that your partner doesn’t always change, as you thought, he/she actually reveals more of his/her true nature and which you are just not able to accept…

what pisses me off the most is that I think I have changed and I am still changing and really fast, as if I am making up for the time lost in insecurities and s**t and building a new me at the speed of oh never mind, and loverboy is apparently not able to keep up and revealing unpleasant bits of his true nature… or unpleasant to me, maybe I am not able to appreciate him

I hate how movies and books and commercials make you want a perfect relationship, a perfect face, hotshot friends to accessorize yourself with…

and how picky and hard to please I have become- am I just falling into this consumerist trap , this habit of cultivating appearances, demanding the best from anything and anyone without giving anything in return?

I hate how in rough times the most gorgeous guys in this city are passing me by every day, so many of them, each one more fabulous than the other…

reason says its boredom and routine and my instincts that are trying to pick out perfect dads for my unborn children… eventhough consciously I am SO not ready to have kidz… though i love them very much and my 6 months at the kindergarden were the best of my life and I will love my little students forever and ever

OK since no one wants to be nice to me I’m gonna have fun all by myself, dedicating the next songs to all the gorgeous men pointlessly coming my way these days… hot papas hehe…. loverboy if you ever read this please do me a favor and don’t go into that stupid jealousy

and no, I don’t-wanna-have-children-just-as-yet-have-I-made-myself-clear?

Babybird- You’re Gorgeous

Natasha Bedingfield- I wanna have your babies -her record company seems to have requested no video be embeddable from youtube

Corrs- Breathless

I love Andrea Corr, her class, her refined naughtiness, her voice- same range as mine hehe- her hair, her passion for jazz, her sense of humour , je l’adore quoi!

oh and there’s also a guy with the same voice range as mine and of course I dig his songs- though I guess you can adapt any song you want to your voice range? why not?- it’s Daniel Bedingfield

Daniel Bedingfield- If you’re not the one

(though I’m not in a romantic mood at all, actually anything but romantic, more like ungrateful, rebellious, adventurous, not taking myself too seriously, habibi don’t worry about it!)

oh what am I doing singing so loud at 6 am with my windows open?

(I have some very easy to disturb neighbours)